I spent quite a bit of time uploading photos of my trip to Snapfish today so I can order prints before my account expires. Then tonight I ran to my local Hobby Lobby before my coupon expired so I could buy a few Chinese New Year decorations. I already have my table decked with red table cloth and a Chinese candle holder I found at HL last year.
So I wandered back to my blog awhile ago and started re-reading some of my posts, which brought the tears flowing freely and the ache growing stronger.
I have wanted a little girl for so long. It feels as if I've waited forever. But looking at the boys' pictures, and trying to remember the feeling of them fighting over who got to sit in the middle of my lap or hold my hand down the hall, well...I knew I could love a boy. In fact, I love two boys already. And the ache for them grows wider and deeper as I think of them left behind.
I don't understand why they have to wait there while there are so many families waiting. I don't get to make the rules.
What I do have the power to make is a difference.
If only knew what the next step should be...
Subscribe to:
Post Comments (Atom)
No comments:
Post a Comment